迷迷糊糊

话说今天午休我到附近的SHOPPING CENTER吃午餐。因为方向感太差，又忘记记录停在哪一排，结果找不到车。而且又赶着回去上班，结果停车场保安自告奋勇载我一圈又一圈地兜停车场。幸好我还记得停在哪一层。

不是我太差劲，而是SHOPPING MALL太大。好吧，太大不是迷路的原因，我去过更多家更大的购物广场。真正的原因是因为我是第二次来这里，所以迷路不出奇。

我穿着一身职业式的衣服，拿着工作用的褐色包包，坐在高尔夫球车上。那一刻我想，我这年纪，不善于照顾自己的同时，竟然还有一萝萝的坏习惯。

比如懒惰煮饭的时候吃杯面、随心所欲做事情不顾后果、出门经常忘记带现金、站在衣橱前选好久的衣服所以经常迟到、关上门后才发现遗漏了手机钱包水瓶，折返3趟是家常便饭、经常忘记把 PARKING TICKET 放在哪里、找东西都需要把包包内的东西倒出来、出门不带伞... ...,常把自己搞得狼狈不堪。

连自己都照顾不好的人，根本就没有什么体贴可言。

倒数毕业之很忙

这是一篇非常生活化的短文，没有一点美感可言。

大学上了三年，十月份开始就已经是第四年。除去这一个学期，还有两个学期我就要毕业了。迈入FINAL YEAR有太多事情要忙, 有12份assignments, 而所有的assignments变得艰巨，再加上毕业论文。庆幸的是这一个学期的时间表还不错，8点上课，4点就能够放学。

因为课业太繁重，平时不再有时间画个画、练下毛笔、趴在桌上上网，就连睡前看书也要少读几页，周末也不能出外逛街喝茶。只能趁着去买菜的时间经过卖花摊口买朵花安慰安慰自己。这月份开始就一直要这样惨兮兮地直到明年1月。

接踵而来的就是1月19开始的internship 直到4月月中。而再来5月就是毕业前最后一个学期。

时间过得特别快。

从一开始我就一直在质疑自己的选择，一连质疑了3年，在这最后一年，我依旧不清楚自己是否做了正确的选择。因为我一直不喜欢采访，绝对不会当个记者。但我知道新闻系不一定得从事采访工作，我还有其他选择。

无论怎样也要撑下去，我走了那么久那么远，再无回头路，只求能够顺利毕业。

The 2 weeks

i was actually suffer from 'suspected dengue' two weeks before I'm going to Beijing.
so I skipped classes for 2 weeks and got blood test for 8 days continuously.
what i did within that 2 weeks was sleep, eat, sleep, eat.

                   

幸好我提早发现与治疗，不然早就死了

Year End.

my two weeks sem break is finishing soon and i sincerely hope that my final year is approaching.
too bad, i just finished the first sem of my third year. 2 more years to go.

though there's still dissatisfaction in me but everything seems going smoothly recently.

my time is always passes faster compared to others i wonder why haha.
again, time flies. a brand new year is coming real soon!
I know the time and schedule in 2014 will be very pack and full of stress since the up coming three semesters are long sem.

but I know everything is gonna be alright.

and i found a new platform for my daily rantings, which can be update faster and easier through smartphone.
IT'S DAYRE! too many social networks we can only choose some we prefer.
facebook and tumblr are the platforms i abandon one.
dayre is my new crush hohoho!

insta and twitter so so.

blogger is only for me to post my long long article LOL, the inner thought especially.
and some of the photos if i do travel.
seriously i have limited time to blog especially during my sembreak.
i'll try to update more. to make this webpage the forever written form of my life.

ps: thanks for dropping by, blogger is my baby i won't leave it, so stay tuned. Merry Christmas. =D

Memories Flood.

photos are all taken during sem break when i was keeping my room.

they are some photos during my secondary school, high school's note, gifts from friends etc.
i decided to throw some gifts and unnecessary stuff.
some are funny, some are precious, some make me feel pain with tears drop.

when i was young i always told myself i will be keeping all these so-called-memories nicely.
but when time flies, i found things different.

i stood there where all the memories are without moving on.

旧物事里找到了一个被遗忘的自己。那时我年轻，梦很多，然后被自己一个接一个地摔破。 --- 黎紫书

I'm Here Again.

想想自己已经好久没有记录的日常生活.

简单带过这两天的半条命生活

我绝对不是一个经常生病的人，抵抗力一直很不错. 但是肠胃从小就很不好. 别人是是无忌弹想吃什么就吃什么，想什么时候吃就什么时候吃，最多也只是泻肚子. 可是我只要稍微饮食不小心就会沦落的一直呕吐发烧，吃什么吐什么，分分钟还会脱水昏倒，一点也不好受.

目前大病初愈，只要吃多一点肚子就不舒服就想吐. 

好的，大致上是这样. 话不多说.

so the next day even i was still sick, took 4 hours journey to singapore. every time i went to singapore my butt sure pain. 

well well, this is the country i came most often, even though i am a malaccan.

honestly nothing to travel in here except for Sentosa which i went there frequently but still not familiar so don't feel like going anymore and universal studios, the one i've never been.

most of the time what i did was just shopping, shopping, shopping, and shopping, of course i went for some nice foods and cafes. other than this i used to stay in house online, sleep, read and watch drama, like what i did in home and kl. 

but kl no maid so i needa to do everything by myself. 

okay, that's all good night. 

Baby

nothing to blog recently. day passed like usually it does.
this semester do give me a lot of stress. haih

by the way, want to see baby???
he's 6 months currently. =D and i kissed him crazily when i was back to home. haha.

he was tumbling on my bed. haha. 

welcome his very fist teeth. 

few months back. when he was still a botak. =D

Year 3

i'm turning third year for my journalism course.

well. this long semester is tough enough with 4 subjects, also, with the lecturers' pushing force.

1. Communication Law
2. Copy Editing
3. Malaysia and International Relation
4. Production and Publication.

Basically the Malaysia and International Relation is some sort like history. the World War I, II, Cold War, UN etc. it is not easy i know since this subject covered quite a number of topics.
The Copy Editing will be focus more on writing i guess.
As for the Production and Publication, the first class is on tomorrow and it wouldn't be easy also, hard work is needed due to our lecture's expectation.
Last but not least, Communication Law. eg: Copyright Act 1987, Defamation Act 1957, Official Secrets Act 1972

14 weeks to go
i can feel the stress.

Birthday Celebration

 imma so pretty short even though my friend is squatting.

大只佬1号

大只佬2号

夜晚

窗外月光柔和，路灯下昏黄的灯光，风阵阵地吹着竹叶.

我很享受晚上的时光，这段时间大约在晚上10点后.

冲了冷水澡后换上质地良好的睡衣，坐在床沿披着湿漉漉的头发，再被热乎乎的风烘干.
7分干的头发一直都是我的习惯。

这时候我会泡一被热牛奶，坐在床上，后背倚在枕头上，目光在电脑屏幕上
冷冷的空调，热热的牛奶；嘴角的奶迹，棉被下的双脚
虽然眼睛有点累了，但我却还是想再坚持一下下

这一刻，我身边我床上总会有一两本书、娃娃熊、手机、耳机、右手一个为了供“安全感”使用的枕头，还有那被我抱着的抱枕。
只身埋在大床的中间

晚上的时光对了我来说总是特别的珍贵特别的静穆，这时候不再忙碌不再匆忙不再闷热。
空气中也仿佛飘散着寂静的因子

耳边响起厅内的钟声，一下、两下、三下....十一下
滑鼠滑向HIBERNATE, 把笔记本合上，放在床的右下角
伸手，关灯，躺下

拿起手机戴上耳机，音乐的音符把我送入一层又一层的梦境里
梦中我按下停播键，拔下耳机
进入一个无边无际的的空间

窗外月光柔和，路灯下昏黄的灯光，风阵阵地吹着竹叶.

ps: 最近一直对沉溺在“未来的恋人”这句话上，眼睛就快睁不开了，明天摘写上藤井树的《真情书》。晚安

celebrating birthday in advance.

i can't stop trembling, was too excited and so unbelievable.

since the other of my friends are so horrible and terrible in giving surprise. i'll know there must be something for me.

this is the biggest surprise i ever have.
so touching.

they celebrate for my birthday in advance since we are having a one month sem break and i'll be back to malacca on this coming Monday.

honestly, everything seems normal, so pretty normal.
am i too careless or they are all good actor/actress?
anyhow, i feel so grateful. =)
thanks all of 'em for their effort.

A BIG SURPRISE!

my very first birthday cake for age 22. =D

i wish...

锥心的痛

was sent to the hospital last night.
throwing out everything i ate for my lunch and tea time.

standing in front of the basin and vomit, i can hardly stand since my legs couldn't support the seriousness of the vomiting and my dizziness. so i move to the toilet bowl, was squatting and throw out even the bile juice. i can clearly see some blood drop i've vomit out.
i know it's time to go hospital since i didn't managed to go even the past two times of uncomfortable of my stomach

the feeling is so terrible. my legs are no more on the floor, they seems like floating and yes i'm flying perhaps.
the doctor have no choice but ask me to stay in the ward and do the intravenous injection due to the low blood pressure with 90mmHg and rapid heartbeat.

guess my vein is too small and it is real hard for them to aim, so my blood was dropping and flowing even to my hand.
after that, with a powerful and super pain injection.
how pain.

this is not the first time for me to suffer from acute gastroenteritis. remembered i stayed in hospital for 4 days when i was 10 years old for this stupid disease.
for the previous years i often suffer from gastro problem.
yes i have a bad gastro especially for improper diet and rotten food.

新年快乐

各位ladies and gentlemen, 大家新年快乐，万事如意，合家平安

新年就是小孩子开心因为有红包拿
三姑六婆聚在一起说三道四
大致上是这样没错
还没结婚的就问你什么时候要结婚
还没生孩子的就问你打算什么时候才要生
还没男女朋友的就问你什么时候才要带回来给他们看

而我的亲戚每次都说我瘦了，我呵呵，重点是我好像从来都没有肥过.
不然就说哇弟弟很高，跟你差很远. 好像哥哥妹妹. 我也呵呵
再来就是，咦你的男朋友咧？做么没有带回来？我还是呵呵

新年就是这样过.

本来打算假期好好在家休息休息做宅女，可是事与愿违
我很忙，每隔一天就往外跑，跑得不亦乐乎.
跑得功课也还没做

* 照片quality 没有很好, 因为我的小红没有带出来，只好用我的小红2号 *

记得有一位朋友说过色酒和汽水混在一起很容易醉
我半信半疑
昨晚被逼比平时喝多两杯，结果吐了一口，醉得一塌糊涂，晕头转向
到家时勉强洗脸刷牙，整张额头都贴到镜子上去了
坐在梳妆桌前想涂个晚霜，结果整个头撞向旁边的衣橱，撞了后还粘在那里离不开

很难受，难受得让我想哭.

干脆放弃晚霜，扑上床，一觉到天亮.

photos. weekend.

had our dinner at 食轩餐馆 (previously known as 中华餐馆) 

supper at Boston Hotpot in Melaka Raya.